cravings – Sweat & Sparkle

Soda Cravings

For whatever reason, this week has been a huge struggle! From the overwhelming urge to eat, eat, eat, to temptations like the cheesecake at that event yesterday and cupcakes that my husband bought yesterday (yes, really), to plans being changed for tonight, when I was going to do a good, sweaty workout, it’s like the entire universe worked against me this week.

Today I am having strong cravings for soda. That surprises me, because I cut back on soda at least a few weeks ago, and I haven’t had any bad cravings until now. I refuse to give in. I refuse to add in the calories and the Weight Watchers points. Tomorrow, after weigh-in, I can have one. Not until then.

During my lunch today, I did 2 miles of a Leslie Sansone walking workout. I usually only do one mile, so I don’t get terribly sweaty and have to get back to work, but I figured I could use the extra mile this week.

Tomorrow morning is weigh in! It’s been a stressful week. I haven’t caved though, except that bite of cheesecake yesterday and some crackers with peanut butter earlier this week. Compared to what I wanted to eat, that is nothing!

Hangry

Me, yesterday

First, the good news: I weighed in on Saturday and lost 4.4 pounds! Wow! It’s amazing how much impact giving up regular soda has. I was thrilled and am aiming for a 2 pound loss this week.

Yesterday was a struggle and a half. I simply woke up with the overwhelming urge to eat, eat, eat, all day long. Junk food, sweets, candy, and soda, that’s all I wanted! I fought to stick to my Weight Watchers points. During my lunch, I picked up a candy bar, hoping it would kill the cravings. Even at 9 points, I knew I could stay under points if I stayed on track the rest of the day.

Well, that didn’t happen. As soon as I got home, I opened the fridge and munched on some leftovers that I knew would put me over my WW points for the day, but I had been fighting the munchies all day and couldn’t hack it anymore.

It could have been much worse. I stopped there and made myself go work out, an hour-long weight training workout, then logged my food for the evening and made myself stop eating. I tapped into my weekly points by about 10 points, and I am still under my weekly points, but I really try not to use those.

I was disappointed in myself for going over my daily points, but also relieved I slammed on the brakes and exercised too. I could easily have gone off the chain, devoured all the food in the house, and sat on my butt on the couch, but I didn’t. So that’s a step forward. I know yesterday could have been far, far worse!

Today I’m tracking my points very carefully, and I won’t go over my daily points the rest of the week. I still want a good weigh-in on Saturday!

Quest Meal Bars…Yuck!

This morning I tried one of the Quest meal bars that someone on the Weight Watchers site recommended, and I can give you a one-word review to save you time: BLECH! I took one bite, made a face, chewed a few times, made more faces, wondered how anyone on earth could possibly eat these things, and threw it away. Saved me points, all right…by not being edible! It was like chewing mixed concrete that hadn’t set yet. The wrapper said “Cookies & Cream”, but there is no reality or universe where that remotely tasted like cookies and cream.

There you go, a professional and thoughtful product review, just one of the many services I offer to you, ha ha.

Yesterday, especially last night, I had a lot of junk food cravings. Luckily I like sweets, and my fiance likes salty snacks, so all I could find in the house were potato chips and other things I don’t like. I made myself leave the kitchen and ignore the ice cream in the freezer. I was so close to being under my WW points for another day, and I didn’t want to blow it.

I’m aiming for at least a 2 pound loss this week. I need to get consistent, stop this two steps forward, a thousand steps back dance that I’ve been doing for so long. I want to commit to doing this right and getting the results I want.

Double Chin

I have a list of small rewards for each 10 pounds lost to keep me motivated and to treat myself for my hard work along the way to my goal weight. My reward for reaching 179 was a pair of earrings I saw online and loved. I weighed in this past Saturday at 177, and I couldn’t wait to get online and order those earrings! I can’t wait to get them.

I have been struggling big-time this week. I have cravings for soda, junk food, fast food, sweets, you name it. If it’s high-calorie, high-fat, and a sure diet-killer, then I want it! NOW! I don’t want to give in. I don’t want to break the weight loss streak I’ve started. I don’t want to slip backwards and gain weight back.

I’ve lost 34 pounds now, and instead of celebrating that and being proud, I find myself being extra critical of myself. If I’ve lost 34 pounds, why do I still have this stupid double chin? I hate it more now than I did when I was over 200 pounds.

I still have 47 pounds to lose. This is not the time to start konking out and flaking out and losing my grip. A lot is going to change over the next 47 pounds. I’m sure that double chin will disappear. I just need to be patient and keep chipping away, one pound at a time.

Scratch the Itch

I struggled all day yesterday with feeling super-hungry and fighting a mad craving for one specific thing: chicken tenders from this local chicken place my boyfriend introduced me to. I just love how they cook the chicken, all crispy fried goodness, and they hook me up with extra honey mustard sauce too. I finally decided last night, for better or for worse, to scratch that damn itch and get it over with so I can move on.

My boyfriend and I went to that chicken place for dinner, and I got my chicken tenders basket and my luscious honey mustard sauce, and I enjoyed every bite. It was delicious! Exactly what I was dying for.

I know it was a high-calorie meal. I know it put me over my calories for the day, especially since I didn’t work out afterward (too full!) But it was 100% satisfying, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I am going to meticulously log my food the rest of the week, and I signed up for an extra Spinning class on Friday morning, bright and early!

I am going to work hard to still have at least a small loss this week. It’s only Wednesday, so maybe I have enough week left to make that happen!