Opposites

There are few words more peaceful, more blissful than “home”. Just like this quote, my husband and I have built our home to be a collection of what we both love, from the roses in the front flower bed to the books stacked neatly on a side table in the living room, to a hobby room full of our latest projects, to the plants tucked everywhere inside where we can find space.

It’s been almost 10 years since we unlocked that front door together for the first time, excited and nervous, a truckload of furniture and boxes waiting for our attention. One project at a time–a bit of paint here, some trim there, a truckload of flowers there– we have made it ours.

Both of us love our home, of course, and it is immensely flattering when someone else loves it, too. Recently my stepson invited his girlfriend to dinner with us, and as soon as she came in, she commented on all the plants we have everywhere. My stepson bragged to her that all of them are real, which made me smile, knowing he is also proud to show her our home.

Even before we moved into this house, I have thought about how jarring it must have been for the kids to go from one home to the other all these years. One place is chaotic, angry, tense, trash-strewn, with everyone tiptoeing on eggshells to avoid triggering the tantrums of the screeching, bitching time bomb. The other is loud with laughter, full of life and happiness, colored with flowers and plants and photos, with people who take great pride in their home, its cleanliness, and its appearance.

Our home is our refuge. It’s the peace waiting for us at the end of each day. It’s where my husband and I find each other, shut the door, and leave the world outside so we can simply enjoy each other. And when the kids find serenity, comfort, and love there as well, then I am happy, knowing we have done our jobs well and have created a gentle landing spot for their peace, too.

Mission accomplished! ♥

Happy for Her

My older stepdaughter was home from college this past weekend, and she got some exciting news on Friday evening about a job offer. It was so sweet watching my husband and her together when she got off the phone. I am still not certain which one was more excited about it. He couldn’t stop beaming, congratulating her, and telling her how proud he was, and she couldn’t stop smiling.

My husband encouraged my stepdaughter to share the news with certain others in her life (do I really need to specify who I mean?), but all she got in response was an ignored voicemail and later a chastising text message, berating her choice, as if she doesn’t have a right to steer her own life.

I bit my tongue. Sometimes that is very difficult to do, but I could tell she was already upset by this lack of support for her. Why make it worse by pointing out the obvious? I’m just glad she was with her father and me when she got the news, so she could get as excited as she pleased and feel happy and proud of herself, like she should.

I wasn’t surprised by the sour reaction. Not even a little bit. I already knew certain others wouldn’t be happy for her. Her accomplishments and successes are a slap in the face to someone who has nothing but an ever-growing list of failures, and each step she takes toward her independence is a threat to someone who wants her to obey orders like a well-trained dog.

Narcissists will be narcissists, no matter what.

My husband and I took my stepdaughter to dinner to celebrate. We let her pick the restaurant. Some people nearby overheard us talking, and they asked her questions about her new job. She chatted with them for a bit, then left the table to use the restroom. While she was gone, one of them said, “She is a sweet girl.”

Yes, she is. She is smart, ambitious, and determined. The job offer she received is something she has wanted since she was a small child, and it’s indescribably exhilarating to see her realizing this dream now. It’s just the first step for her, the launching pad for something even higher, and I can’t put into words how thrilled for her I am.

I can’t imagine being so resentful, bitter, and envious that I would be incapable of being happy for her at such a meaningful moment in her life. To be so hateful and hollow is to be dead inside already, soul-less, joyless. I feel sorry for anyone who is unable to share this excitement with her, because it is one of the proudest moments of my life to see my stepdaughter flourishing beautifully into a triumphant, successful, and happy young lady.

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