Justified and Sleep Deprived

I love this show!

Tomorrow is my weigh-in, and I really hope it’s a good loss this week.  I worked hard this week, and I even cut back on soda.  I drink Coke like my body needs it to survive, so it’s a huge step for me to reduce that keg of soda per day down to one small bottle.  I thought surely my poor body would go into shock at the introduction of foreign substances like water and unsweet tea, but so far, so good!

My boyfriend has been sick this week with a cough, and it’s been keeping him up at night.  That means it’s also keeping me up.  Add in my addiction to the show “Justified”, which I recently discovered on Amazon and have been staying up late to binge-watch episodes, and let’s just say I am a bit sleep deprived.  It really hit me when I attempted to work out yesterday evening.  I felt sluggish, weak, drained.  I wanted nothing more than to curl up on the floor, let that DVD play itself out, and just go to blissful sleep.

Clearly I need to make some changes to make this whole weight loss effort easier for myself.  I have a long way to go (about 70 pounds), and making myself leap hurdles I put in front of myself is pretty much guaranteeing failure.  I’m going to set myself a bedtime, no matter what is happening on “Justified”!  My poor body needs sleep and rest and recovery.  It’s impossible to work out when I feel like a zombie.

This evening we will be picking up my stepkids for the weekend.  They just started back to school this week, so I’m looking forward to hearing about their first week.

P.S. I still have one more season to go in “Justified”, so if you have already watched the entire show, please don’t let me know what happens!

Where Are You From?

Today I just want to do something fun.  Since I have to watch out for my #1 fan, oh-so-lovingly and quite aptly nicknamed Psycho, I track IP addresses to this blog.  It’s interesting to see different cities and even different countries show up.

So today, I just want to ask: where are you from? I like to label my blog visitors so I know which ones I know already and which ones are new.

In particular, I’d really like to hear from the people who read regularly but have never commented, so don’t be shy!  If you have a blog too, drop the link in the comments if I don’t already link to you.

Here’s an example: I have a frequent visitor from Xenia, Ohio, with a Time Warner Cable Internet provider, but I don’t think I’ve ever gotten a comment from this person.  I love that people come back to read my blog, so please don’t take this as a bad thing or calling someone out for reading my blog, when that’s exactly why my blog exists!  I am just curious who my readers are, and if you also have a blog, I’d like to read yours as well so we can support each other.

If you don’t want to leave a comment here telling me where you are from, since this is a public blog, then drop me a message at mystalkerisfat2015@gmail.com.  Again, don’t be shy!  I just want to get to know my readers.  Thanks!

Back to School!

I weighed in a day early last week, since my boyfriend and I were going to be an hour away in Hickville, the redneck town where Psycho dragged the kids after their divorce, most of the day on Friday for the kids’ school orientations.  I knew we would be going out to eat for lunch, and I wanted to enjoy it instead of stressing over my weigh-in.

I had a small gain of 0.4 pound, up to 199.  Practically back into the 200’s after just getting out of them!  I am NOT getting back into the 200’s.  It was a small gain, but a gain nonetheless, which means I am doing something wrong that needs to be adjusted.  Fast.

The top I wore to the kids’ schools fit looser in the sleeves, so I still felt pretty good.  And I had to keep yanking my jeans up.  My youngest stepdaughter said maybe it’s because I’m getting smaller, which made my day 🙂   I know they can’t tell yet that I’ve lost weight, but the kids see me working out each day they are with us, so they know I am trying.

I loved seeing the kids on Friday, but it’s disheartening to go to the town they live in now and visit the schools and see how short-changed they are.  I am from a small town, so I am not putting down all small towns.  But Hickville is the most close-minded, uneducated, disorganized, backward place I’ve ever seen, and I know the kids are not getting the education they deserve there.  Class schedules weren’t even ready, and no one seemed to know what was going on.

It meant being in close proximity to Psycho most of the day, watching her waddle through the hallways, forcing people to talk to her so that we would think she is more popular than she is (it didn’t work).  I could feel her staring at me, doing her usual size-up, seeing if I am heavier than her, trying to figure out if I have lost any weight.  If I haven’t, she doesn’t have to either, seems to be her mindset. But if I have, then she needs to go on some dramatic, competitive pursuit of being thinner than me.  Yeah, we’ve been through this a time or two.

She showed her ass at the high school, which was upsetting for the kids, but she doesn’t care about that.  She chose to have a temper tantrum when I asked to see my oldest stepson’s class schedule, so I could make sure it was the same as the schedule online, since there was so much confusion about schedules that day.  For some reason that infuriated her, and she shoved the schedule at me, huffed, and stomped, tight-lipped, away from me.  The kids looked at her like she was crazy (she is), and when my boyfriend came back from the restroom, he said the kids looked upset and asked me what happened.

What kind of person gets so angry and out of sorts about me wanting to double-check a child’s class schedule?  It’s a shame she chose to behave like that in front of the kids.  It’s a shame she does a lot of things.  I’m sure the kids heard all kinds of comments about me the rest of the day.

Today is the kids’ first day of school, so we will call them later to check in and see how it went.  I love the back-to-school feeling, a new start, a fresh school year, clean slate, exciting.  Perfect day for planning my strategy to make sure I get back to steady weight losses each week and back on plan!

Train of Thought

I consider myself a rational, intelligent person, but for some reason, when it comes to weight loss, I can quickly morph into the most ridiculous, senseless, idiotic dolt on the planet. Case in point: I already know that I have a work luncheon on Thursday and will be at the kids’ school orientations on Friday, which means I will be eating out for lunch, so I thought to myself: “Why not just take this whole week off? If I have to be off track on Thursday and Friday, why even bother?  I can start over on Monday!”

Yes, that actually made sense to me.  Ugh.  How does that train of thought even leave the station?

Luckily I articulated this nonsense to a friend in an email, and luckily she called me out on it and said it would just lead to weight gain, which would make things harder.  And she was right, of course. Thanks, Internet friend, for not letting me play these stupid games with myself!

So last night, instead of pigging out and then crashing on the couch as planned, I tried Les Mills On Demand, workout videos online for which I currently have a 10-day free trial.  I love the Les Mills Combat workouts, so I thought this would be a good way to try out some of the other workouts they offer, and for free. What’s not to love about that?

I did 30 minutes of Les Mills Pump, then tried some Sh’Bam, a dance workout, which turned out to be a sweaty blast.  Let’s just that say any workout that uses the song “U Can’t Touch This” is a workout for me!

I have to admit, it wasn’t all perfect and good.  My boyfriend said he had a craving for chicken tenders, so we went to a chicken joint.  I ordered the small, 3-tender basket, but it was served with fries.  When I entered it into MyFitnessPal later, it was a nice slap in the face to see it cost me about 800 calories for the damn chicken alone!

Considering my original plan was a junk food binge and then plopping on the couch, I actually did pretty good.  But considering I invested time and energy into working out, it is a shame that my dinner put me so far over on my calories when I could have made much better choices with just a bit of forethought and care.

I am weighing in one day early this week, on Friday, so I still have today and tomorrow to drink water, work out, and get ready for weigh in!

July Recap

After being out of town a few days last week, I expected a gain at weigh-in Saturday morning.  I was right: up to 198.6, a gain of 0.8 pound.  I was surprised it wasn’t more, but also disappointed in my second gain for July.  At least both gains were small, less than a pound, not my usual 3-4 pound gain!

My July recap:

Starting Weight: 205
Ending Weight: 198.6
Exercise Minutes: 1513
Pounds Lost: 6.4

I was happy to end July with a 6 pound loss, but without those two small gains, it would have been closer to 8 pounds.  It’s still progress, but I am tired of constantly taking a step back instead of consistently moving toward my goal.  My goal for August is to lose 8 pounds and to drop down into the 180’s!

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