Shopping Trip

My weigh-in this past Saturday was great: down 3 more pounds, to 188.2.  I am finally out of the 190’s!  Now to focus on blasting through these 180’s to hit the 170’s.  If I focus on just the next 10 pounds, it doesn’t seem so overwhelming!

Having a 3-day weekend was a challenge.  Something about a day off makes me want to skip my workout, laze around, and eat (okay, that’s not much different than how I feel every day, ha ha).  I made myself go to the gym yesterday, and I ran on the treadmill with an incline to strengthen my legs.  I logged all my food on MyFitnessPal, which kept my eating in check.

I had to go shopping over the weekend for an outfit for my company’s big awards and anniversary event next week.  I hate shopping for clothes when I am this overweight.  Nothing is going to look good, and I know it!  I hate pawing through the racks looking for my size behind all the tiny 6’s and 8’s.

I found a nice pair of black pants and a pretty, royal blue top.  I promised myself that when I reach goal weight, I will come back to that store and enjoy browsing through the pretty, cute clothes in smaller sizes.  I will enjoy trying on nice clothes and seeing how great they look on me.  I may not have enjoyed this shopping trip, but I promise myself, even if it’s months and months from now, I will be able to go back and enjoy the next one!

Fast Forward

This week has suddenly stomped the gas pedal and lurched into all-out madness mode.  Yesterday our executive assistant quit, and our company has a huge anniversary and awards event in two weeks. Guess who gets all that extra work dumped on her?  Yep, yours truly, and this is not the first time this has happened.  Let’s just say my boss can be a bit difficult, so she burns through assistants like crazy. I just try not to get too attached to any of them.

I was so frazzled when I got home from work yesterday, I was tempted to just say “screw it”, order pizza and wings, and crash on the couch to gripe and complain to my poor boyfriend.

No.  A thousand times no.  I refused to fall back into that mindset.  What would it get me, besides a few pounds heavier and a stomach-ache?  My problems would still be there when I gulped the last bite.

I dusted off an old workout DVD I haven’t done in so long, I can’t remember when I did it last.  It’s part of the Supreme 90 Day workout set, and it’s called Tabata Inferno.  As the name subtly suggests, it’s high-intensity and quite the sweat producer.

I was fairly certain I would die before completing this workout.  It’s 45 minutes of desperately begging the workout to just end, already, for the love of all that is holy and good and merciful!
But I made it, with some modifications and admittedly with some just standing there getting angry because I hate mountain climbers with every cell of my body.  My legs and butt are sore today, so I did something right.
This morning I got up at 5:30 to hit the treadmill at the gym and fit in a run.  This evening is my younger stepson’s first football game of the season, and my boyfriend and I are traveling to the game (it’s away) to root him on and to model our new football shirts.  They are pretty snazzy, if I may so myself, personalized with my stepson’s jersey number.
Looks like the next two weeks are going to be insane, stressful, frazzled, and hectic.  I need to brace myself and make sure I don’t let that become a reason that I overeat, skip workouts, and start sliding backward into self-destructive and stupid habits.  I am down 19 pounds, I want to get out of the 190’s this weigh-in, and I want to keep moving in the right direction!

60-Day Challenge

My gym started a 60-day challenge, and I debated joining, talked myself out of it more than once, then finally bit the bullet and paid the $20 fee (hey, at the very least I will get a t-shirt out of the ordeal).  The person who loses the highest percentage of body weight gets a cash prize, and runners-up get prizes like a free membership for a year or sessions with a personal trainer.

Last night I went to the gym to do my starting weigh-in and picture, which I’m sure won’t be gracing the cover of Vogue or Sports Illustrated anytime soon!  I felt like I should slouch and make that pouty, miserable frown like in “before” pictures in those magazine advertisements, but I had just made a joke about mug shots, since I had to hold the paper with my name and starting weight on it, so I was laughing in my pictures.

So now I have 60 days to lose as much weight as humanly possible.  I actually kind of like to eat, so starving myself is out (that’s a joke, as starving myself was never a viable option), so I suppose I need to fall back on increasing the intensity of my workouts.  Once upon a time, when I was younger and had more energy, I used to work out twice a day, in the morning and again after work.  I don’t see that happening, but it’s not a bad idea to double up maybe one or two days a week.  It won’t kill me.

I like the idea of pushing myself over the next 60 days and using this challenge to stay motivated and on fire to keep dumping this weight.  I don’t know if I have a snowball’s chance in hell of winning anything, but I will try my hardest!

Motivated

The weekend went by so fast!  My stepkids were home, and those weekends always fly by.  My boyfriend took them to a burger joint for dinner Friday night, so I stayed home and worked out instead.  I used to go with them, and I wanted to go with them, to be honest, but with weigh-in the next day, I didn’t want to pig out.

I went running Saturday morning while the kids were still sleeping.  I am trying to ease from treadmill running to outdoor running, since I have been battling shin splints when I run outside.  My first step has been running on a nice, smooth, level, flat high school track.  I ran 4 miles, then headed home for weigh in.

Another loss: down 1.8 pounds to 191.2.  I was really hoping to be out of the 190’s, but with an annivesary dinner plus a lunch out this past week, I am happy to have had a loss at all.  I’ll take it!

I worked out Sunday morning while the kids were eating breakfast.  I try to time my workouts so I am missing out on as little as possible.

I could tell my younger stepson was not happy when it was time to drive them back to Hickville and our weekend was over.  He is typically loud, energetic, and bursting with jokes, but he got very quiet and withdrawn.  It’s almost like the better the weekend we have, the harder it is at the end for them. Nine years into this, and I still rage about how unfair this is to them.

My boyfriend told me later that my stepson asked him, “Is she trying to lose weight?”  My boyfriend told him yes, that is why they see me working out and working out so hard.  My stepson said, “Well, it shows”.  My heart nearly burst with pride that he noticed and said something about it.  That was, without a doubt, the biggest motivation I’ve had in a long time.  I am determined to make them proud of me when they see what I can accomplish when I really put my all into it.

Coke Addict

Yesterday I made it all day without a drop of soda!  Unless you know what a raging soda addict I am, you may not be terribly impressed by the enormity of that, so let’s just say that I am so hooked, I typically have Coke with my breakfast and just keep chugging from there.

I filled a small bottle with fruit juice yesterday and started my day with that instead.  I switched to unsweet tea the rest of the day.  I can’t say I was enthused about the change, and I definitely won’t say it was easy, but it saves a lot of calories during the day and cuts way back on sugar too.

After work, I did an hour-long Jari Love Get Ripped workout, one of the older ones, Slim & Lean, but there is nothing like a classic.  This morning I got up at holy-crap o’clock and hit an early Spinning class.  Today I’m doubling up my workout and will work out again after work, to make up for skipping a workout on Tuesday and eating out twice this week.

So, tomorrow morning is the big moment, weekly weigh-in!  I’m not so sure what this one will hold, but I am hoping for at least a small loss to end the month.

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