Need to Think

If you hear a shrill, horrifying, and piercing scream early tomorrow morning, don’t worry.  It’s not a late Halloween movie or a grisly crime scene in progress.  It’s just me, stepping onto the scale after nearly two weeks of minimal workouts and endlessly stuffing my face.  It’s not going to pretty.  I might have tranquilizers on stand-by.

One thing I’ve learned from this most recent fall-on-my-face episode is that I need to build in changing things up and making shifts to my routine.  I get bored very easily with workout routines, or any routine, for that matter: counting calories, counting Weight Watchers points, tracking exercise minutes, you name it.  I burn out fast and need change to keep me interested.

I need to do some thinking this weekend about things I need to change and do differently.  I need to find what works for me, then find out how to keep doing it, not do it for a few weeks then gain it all back. Change motivates me.  There was nothing inherently magical about Weight Watchers, but it was different.  It was something new to learn and interest me and keep me motivated, but only for a little while.

So what’s up next for me?  I’m not sure yet.  I will work out this evening, weigh in tomorrow morning, let that scary number sink into my brain, and brainstorm how to get from there to where I ultimately want to be.  I’m not ready to give up on actually getting there, someday.

Zzzzzzz….

I can’t say my mood has improved much.  Lack of sleep is definitely a huge factor.  For some reason I wake up a lot, all night long.  Today I feel like a zombie.

My computer died at work, and for some reason my company is acting like replacing a computer is an unheard-of concept, and they are completely lost at how to go about this mind-boggling process.  So I am jumping from my office to the intern computer in a cubicle, trying to get my work done, all the while trying to push the purchase of my new computer.  Not helping the mood any!

Today’s post has no point whatsoever except that I thought I better check in, let everyone know I still exist, just not terribly pleasant to be around these days.  Too much on my shoulders, in my head.  And I’m raging, falling-down, crazy tired!

What the…?

For whatever reason, this week has been atrocious.  The most frustrating part is, I can’t even put my finger on what is wrong.  I have a serious case of the blah’s and just feel “who cares” about everything.   My eating has been terrible, and I’ve skipped workouts the last two days.

Less than a pound from a major mini-goal, and here I am, screwing it up big time.  And I can’t even explain why.

This evening, whether I feel like it or not, I am going to make myself work out.  If I have to kick, scream, swear, and howl in protest the entire time, I am going to get a workout in tonight!  

So Close to Onederland!

For this weekend’s weigh in, I lost 2.2 pounds and am down to 200.6.  So close to no longer being over 200 pounds!  I’m definitely shooting for under 200 by this weekend.

The weather this weekend was beautiful, perfect for being outside.  I got some yard work done but also took time to just sit in the yard and enjoy the breeze, the sun, watching my fiance and the kids play in the yard. I really enjoyed it.

My plan was to go running at the gym this morning, but I screwed up setting the alarm and didn’t wake up in time to drive to the gym and back.  Instead of using that as an excuse to go back to sleep and skip the whole thing, I decided I could still do a short workout at home.  I got up, threw my hair into a ponytail, and kicked and punched my way through a Les Mills Combat workout.  I hate working out in the morning, but I love the feeling of having my workout done for the day already!

Moment of Truth

Ever since my wanna-eat-everything-in-sight day earlier this week, I’ve been careful to stay under my Weight Watchers points.  Tomorrow morning will be the moment of truth, when I weigh in.

It’s been a busy, hectic week, but I’ve made sure to fit in a workout each day.  I think I finally picked out a wedding dress, and it’s been motivating me to stick to my workouts so I look good in it!  I already picked out a cool picture frame for our wedding photo to sit on the fireplace mantel, and if it’s going to be right there every day, I want to be certain I feel good about how I look in that picture.

I’m ready to head home and start the weekend.  The kids will be here this weekend, and it’s hard to leave to work out so soon after they first get here, but I need to stick to this.

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