Excited Again

d2b09febd8701230093eb34ffcfa30aaI’m not quite sure exactly what is different this week, but I feel like I finally woke up from a much-too-long sleep.  I feel the stirrings of excitement, of change on the horizon, and I am ready to jump into it and get things moving.

I weighed in on Saturday morning, and then simply enjoyed the weekend with my husband and the kids.  I didn’t hit the gym, but I got plenty of exercise in the form of yard work, pulling weeds, manual labor, and sweating half to death since it is hotter than Hell here.

I’m going to interrupt this blog post to insert this crisp, refreshing image of fall, so I can wistfully dream of cooler days and chilly evenings:

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Actually, that picture makes me want to go trail running, in the fall, with dry leaves crunching under my blinged-out running shoes, sun filtering through branches, nice and cool and beautiful…not 100 degrees and humid and gross, which is all summer is.

Okay, I came here to talk about being excited about the week, but I got derailed griping about summer.  Back to happy!

I had many mini-goals I set for myself, goal weights by certain dates and events, that are not going to happen.  Not even close.  It took a long time for me to wrap my head around that disappointment, but now that I finally have, it’s like I heaved a suffocating boulder off my shoulders and am able to look to the future with new eyes, no longer clouded by regret.

I can set new mini goals.  I can still look forward to small successes along the way.  I can build up to bigger and better accomplishments.  And I can appreciate my effort, and be gentle with myself, and honor how kick-ass it is to never give up!

My goals for this week:

  1. Log all of my food and drink, Monday through Friday. (I don’t get online enough on weekends to use my online food diary).
  2. Exercise at least 30 minutes each day.
  3. Lose at least 2 pounds by Saturday’s weigh-in.

Consistency

On Sunday, I threw my body into acute shock by actually working out.  I was crazy proud of myself the rest of the day.  Then on Monday, I blew it off, slacked off, and skipped my workout for no good reason, really, except I just plain didn’t feel like it.

My biggest issue for quite some time now has been getting back to any kind of consistency.  A workout here and there isn’t helping much.  Shocking, right?  Logging one meal a day and then forgetting about my food diary for a week isn’t accomplishing much, either.

Come on now!  I have lost a good bit of weight in the past.  I know how to do this.  I am fully capable of doing this.

*swift kick in my own rear*

Take that!

Yesterday I worked out with weights, and I have logged my breakfast so far today.  That’s  a good start.

My goal for the rest of this week: get consistent.  Work out every day the rest of this week, and log my food, every bite, every sip, the rest of the week too.

I will never see results with what I am doing now.  I’m just flat sick of being fat, overweight, out of shape.  I want to change.  I need to change.  I have wasted enough time.

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Good Hair Day

Well, I didn’t work out yesterday, but here I am, writing on my blog, so I’m not entirely, completely sucking at my weekly goals.  Oh, and I logged all my food and drink yesterday.  Okay, I actually didn’t wrap up yesterday’s food log until this morning, when I finally remembered I set a goal of logging each day, but it’s still finished, and today is filled in through lunch too.

“Work out” is at the top of my to-do list for this evening.  I don’t want to, for many reasons, not the least of which being I am having a good hair day and don’t want to mess it up (seriously, it’s all fluffy and bouncy today), but I will sacrifice my hairdo to burn a few calories tonight.

I need a long-term goal to go with my weekly goals, not just something vague like “reach my goal weight eventually, at some undetermined point in the distant future”.  I have been kicking around ideas and really like the thought of setting a goal to correspond with football season.  I love football games, especially my younger stepson’s games, and every year I like to get a new team shirt.  I’d like to be able to get a new one in at least one size smaller this fall.  I will keep brainstorming and nail down my personal challenge, hash out details, and post it here soon.

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Okay, okay, I’ll go anyway!
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