I did a lot of thinking yesterday. Now, usually, that is a dangerous thing. But last night it seemed to lead me to a good decision.
I had been kicking around the idea of joining Weight Watchers again. My husband reminded me that last time, I got bored quickly with the meetings and quit going. That’s true. The first meeting or two, I was gung-ho, excited, enthused, practically tossing confetti and lighting fireworks as I strutted eagerly into that room. Pretty quickly, though, it just felt like yet another chore on my to-do list, and I didn’t want to go anymore.
But there’s no denying that the points system helped me eat so much better. I didn’t have a choice. When a soda is about 9 points, and I have maybe 30 pounds for an entire day, I learned pretty quickly that I had to scrap the soda and the junk if I wanted to actually eat. Counting calories is easier, but it’s obviously not motivating me to make better choices. I’ve struggled long enough trying to get back on track on my own. It was time for a change.
So I marched into work this morning, having decided I would join online only, that I would invest in a few months of access to the app and food-logging tools, that I would spend the money and the time to do this for myself, and hoorah and yippee, and…the Weight Watchers site had a server issue and was down.
What the…? Are you freakin’ kidding me? I finally decide to take a big step and do something to help myself, and their website isn’t working? Is this some cruel practical joke of the asshole Internet gods?
It’s all good. I tried a little bit later, and I was able to sign up. So I am now a committed, full-fledged, all-in Weight Watchers warrior goddess again! Too bad they don’t sell armor in their online shop.
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| Maybe I can train my cats to enforce my WW points. |
I set up the app and am getting used to their system and points again. I logged my breakfast, just to get back into the habit, and ohhhhhh boy, let’s just say I really need to make some serious changes, and fast! Is it bad to have only point left for the day at 11 AM? Ha ha. Just asking for a friend. Yeah, ummm, not for me.
Another change I made, in line with the kinder, gentler approach I mentioned: for now I am eliminating all weight goals, charts, logs, contests, challenges, etc. Putting pressure on myself is not motivating right now. I will keep the My Marine Boot Camp Challenge image on my page, since I still intend to support my stepson by losing weight while he is gone, but I’m not measuring a certain number of pounds in a certain number of days. It will just backfire on me right now. Maybe down the road, I will feel ready to jump into challenging myself, but for now, it’s all about being kind to myself and gaining my strength back up, emotionally and physically.
I came across an article yesterday about apps for runners, and it mentioned the Peloton app. You know, the company with the exercise bike that costs as much as a used car, featuring hyper-fit people with money oozing out of their pores, with their dedicated workout room surrounded with sparkling windows so they can gaze upon the tranquil great outdoors as they pedal and contemplate what else to spend their money on? Yeah, that one.
Sweat & Sparkle 