Rather Be Dead

49d9692d123b49e5c5b2e34d6f2f0cefWhen two of your school-aged children have F after F in school, and when the youngest one is already completely failing one class and hovering on the brink of failing another, you (as a concerned parent) launch into action immediately, correct?  You make sure they do their homework, talk to their teachers, help the kids with lessons, whatever it takes to get them back on track.

Well, that’s what a good parent would do.  Anyone care to venture a guess whether Psycho is doing any of these things?

I honestly try to shy away from posting much about the drama and bullshit on here, but for god’s sake, enough is enough.  It’s Psycho’s fault the kids’ grades are suffering, period.  She offers no stability, no sanity, in their lives, tearing them from home to home, wrapping them up so tight in her psychotic drama that they can’t breathe.  They are forced to pay for her poor life choices, but as long as she is getting what she wants (attention, sympathy, money from her daddy), then it’s all worth it to her.

Bottom line is, she simply doesn’t care.  Kids failing school?  *shrug* What does that have to do with her life?  The kids are nothing but pawns anyway, not real people, right?

My biggest crime will always be that I care about the kids.  Psycho has no idea how it feels to see the kids hurting and to feel even a twinge of concern about it.  She has no idea how difficult it is to see the scars on them, inflicted deliberately by people who are supposed to care about them, and to give a shit about that.  How could she?  She is completely, utterly absorbed with herself, and that leaves no room to waste a thought on anyone else, least of all the kids.

I have never known anyone so unashamed of being thoroughly worthless and useless.  I have never seen anyone congratulate herself so much on being selfish and pathetic.

So as much it hurts to see the kids neglected, battered, and tossed around yet again, at least I am not like Psycho.  I could not bear that.  I would rather be dead.

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Author: Sweat & Sparkle

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5 thoughts on “Rather Be Dead”

  1. I know how that feels. My ex fought over guardianship of my twins. She does nothing for them. She likes to keep all the kids dependent on her. It goes back to her own childhood issues. I finally gave up fighting. It doesn’t do the kids any good but it does reduce my stress.

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    1. I give up on the kids’ egg donor ever even trying to be a respectable person or parent, and the kids are getting old enough that they are responsible for their own behavior, even if it is difficult to admit what kind of person she really is. I think it’s easier for them to believe her lies that the problem is everyone else, not her. I am just so fed up with feeling like the only ones who give a damn about any of it are me and their father.

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  2. It is a terrible situation but those kids do have you and your husband. Mother is a whack job, but the fact that the kids do have positive influences in their life make all the difference in the world. Imagine if all they had was her?? Never seeing people that love, nurture, support or care? What if they thought everyone is like their mother? How do you think they would turn out? Remember they will eventually see what she is. But even when they do, they will still love their mother but they won’t love the type of person she is.

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