Fear

This week, I am definitely stepping out of my comfort zone.  I want to ramp things up, turn up the flame, shake things up.

First, I renewed my membership to Beachbody on Demand, which gives me access to online workouts like P90X, 21 Day Fix, and most important, Insanity.  I did a round of Insanity workouts last summer, and they are unbelievably tough!  I want to start another round to build up my endurance and stamina for my running, and also to torch calories like crazy.

That leads to my next out-of-my-comfort-zone decision: I am 99% sure I have convinced myself to sign up for a half marathon in 2019.  WHAT?  Yep, you read that right!  I have a lot of work to do, but once the notion struck my brain, I couldn’t stop thinking about it.  I take that as a sign to go for it.

I have actually completed half marathon distance twice, but it was running on my own, so no medal or t-shirt to flaunt about shamelessly.  Also, that was several years ago, so I am starting from scratch.

Thing is, I first started thinking about a half marathon about two months ago.  Since then, I keep talking myself out of it.  I’m too out of shape, I won’t be ready by next year, I won’t be able to finish, I’m too old, I’ve gained too much weight to get back into running, blah blah blah.  I keep convincing myself I can’t do it, which is why I haven’t signed up for one yet.

I don’t even know where that self-doubt is coming from.  I am typically a very confident individual (some would say arrogant, but anyone who says that is just jealous, of course!)

I was about to say that the worst that could happen is that I give it a go and can’t finish.  But that’s not true.  The worst thing that could happen is that I don’t even try because I’ve clipped my own wings, beat myself down, and chickened out of even giving it a shot.

I won’t know what I can do unless I try.  I’m still nervous about committing to a half marathon, but if I am still thinking about it months later, then obviously I need to take that shot.

Author: Sweat & Sparkle

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