I have a confession: I have been just a bit sketchy lately. First, I started skipping weigh-ins. Then I would weigh in but not post it on my weigh-in page. Then I threw a password onto my weigh-in page, so that the whole world couldn’t see it.
Then I wisely smacked myself in the head. What good does it do to hide the truth? Honestly, if I just lie about my weight gain, could I ever in a million years actually believe that it doesn’t show for everyone to see, anyway?
So no more bullshitting. No more stupid games or pretending. I have updated my weigh-in page, removed the password, and am baring all to the world. After reaching 157 pounds in July, I have blown up like a puffer fish back up to…*gulp*…200.6 pounds. God, that hurt to even type. Yep, I am back over 200 pounds, somewhere I said I would never be again.
I’m not going to pretend I have any excuses or reasons for this weight gain. It has been laziness and overeating, pure and simple. I’ve had a lot going on lately, burning the candle at both ends, but I didn’t gain this weight in the last few weeks. I’ve been hurting myself and destroying my body and my health since this summer.
I figured plastering my weight gain on my blog would make me feel more accountable to actually do something about it now. It’s embarrassing to admit I have done this to myself. AGAIN. But it’s there for everyone to see, on my blog and all over my body.
Time to do something about it. I feel a bit shell-shocked, putting this mess into black and white, announcing it to the world, but I knew I had to be honest about it to get a grip on it and turn this around.
One of my inspirations is still my oldest stepson. (Well, all of my stepchildren, but he is the one with us all the time now). Ever since he moved in with us, his dad and I have been encouraging him to try new things, to move forward, to be patient and keep working toward goals and what he wants in life. How much of a hypocrite would I be tell him that, then turn around and keep wallowing in bad habits and unhealthy choices, or turning my back on my goals and what I want in life?
Sweat & Sparkle 