I can sum up September in one word: FAIL. I can declare, with all honesty, that I did absolutely nothing right this entire month.
I have now gained 20 pounds since the wedding in July. I could try to blame it on any number of things, from being busy at work, stressing over Hurricane Irma, power being out, clean-up that took two weekends, a huge work event last week, and joy of all joys, coming home from that trip with a nice souvenir: a stuffy nose and a cough.
But let’s get real, those are all just excuses. And I am beyond disgusted with myself. My self-esteem has taken a beating, that’s for sure. I feel self-conscious, because I know everyone who was praising me for my weight loss is now wondering how in the hell I gained so much back, so fast.
The kids have stopped mentioning my weight loss altogether, which upsets me the most. I was happy with how excited and proud they were at how much weight I had lost. I loved when they told me how good I look. Well, what are they supposed to say after I pack 20 pounds back on?
There is no way in hell now that I will reach my goal weight by the end of this year. So once again, I will end the year still overweight. Once again, I will set a new year’s resolution to reach goal weight in the new year. Once again, I have set goals, then failed to reach them.
I want to work on a workout plan today. I want to set up a general workout guide, something like “Monday: cardio; Tuesday: weight training”, etc., maybe a weekly or monthly calendar so I can hang it up and cross off the days as I finish each workout.
I don’t know. I feel a bit lost. I’m so disgusted with myself right now, it’s hard to get started again. I am angry and disappointed and wondering just what in the holy hell is wrong with me.
Sweat & Sparkle 
If you keep using the word “can't” and you stay in that mindset that you will only fail, then that's what will happen. You need to change your mindset to a positive one. How much weight do you have to lose to reach your goal?I'm gonna lay it on thick here so I hope you won't be offended. But get a grip on yourself woman! You did not lose all that weight to start failing now. I know that you can do better hun. Get your butt in gear next month. Much love:)
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If you keep using the word “can't” and you stay in that mindset that you will only fail, then that's what will happen. You need to change your mindset to a positive one. How much weight do you have to lose to reach your goal?I'm gonna lay it on thick here so I hope you won't be offended. But get a grip on yourself woman! You did not lose all that weight to start failing now. I know that you can do better hun. Get your butt in gear next month. Much love:)
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Write out your plan, put the calendar where you'll see it every day and get started. I know you can do it. This is just a tiny step back. October will be giant leap forward!
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Write out your plan, put the calendar where you'll see it every day and get started. I know you can do it. This is just a tiny step back. October will be giant leap forward!
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You worked your butt off and lost the weight. You proved to yourself you can do it and you did do it. So you took a break but get back up off the ground and get your butt back in gear. So what you gained again now lose it again like you proved to yourself and everyone else you could. Dont give up on yourself because we arent giving up on you.
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You worked your butt off and lost the weight. You proved to yourself you can do it and you did do it. So you took a break but get back up off the ground and get your butt back in gear. So what you gained again now lose it again like you proved to yourself and everyone else you could. Dont give up on yourself because we arent giving up on you.
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I'm sorry you're lost and gaining weight is just too easy to do. I think starting with a plan is the right direction to go, then from there just focus on each day intensely. You did it before so you know you can do it again.
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I'm sorry you're lost and gaining weight is just too easy to do. I think starting with a plan is the right direction to go, then from there just focus on each day intensely. You did it before so you know you can do it again.
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Feeling lost is such a great way to describe this feeling. How can we be so strong and focused one week and then wander around aimlessly the next?
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Feeling lost is such a great way to describe this feeling. How can we be so strong and focused one week and then wander around aimlessly the next?
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