June 2017 – Page 2 – Sweat & Sparkle

Wow, I had no idea it’s been over a week since my last post! Time is flying. Work is crazy, and I just haven’t had time to put thoughts to keyboard.

I am aiming to lose 3 pounds this week to bring me down to my next 10-pound goal and down to 169. I weighed in at 172.6 on Saturday, and I’d love to reach my next mini-goal this week. I know it’s asking a lot to drop 3 pounds in one week, so I’ve stepped up my workouts and am religiously logging everything.

This week started off with my car sitting in the shop, and today my fiance’s truck, which we’ve already dropped a ton of cash into, was towed to the mechanic. The mechanic couldn’t find anything wrong with my car, and it completely quit doing what it was doing this weekend (sounded sluggish when I started it). So that was good…sort of…because now I still don’t know why it was doing that. And the truck rose to the challenge and is more than making up for it by having plenty wrong.

*sigh*

I had a stomachache and a headache just thinking about it. Instantly, my stressed-out brain started churning out excuses for why pigging out would be totally justified. Who can worry about weight loss when we have bigger things to worry about? Come on, it won’t hurt, and I deserve it, all this stress to deal with. Leave that healthy lunch sitting in the fridge and go grab some fast-food drive-through for lunch to feel better.

To make matters worse, someone brought in a box of cookies, sitting temptingly in the work kitchen, cooing to me. I even went so far as to have my hand on the lid, lying to myself that it would be just one.

But I walked away. I knew damn well it wouldn’t be just one. It would be one after the other, after the other. I’ve worked too hard to lose the weight I’ve lost so far. It would be comforting to fall into bad habits, but I’m not going to do it.

Last week was a challenge, with Memorial Day (and a day off) on Monday, then my stepson’s graduation on Friday. Any change in my routine makes it harder for me to stick to a workout plan, but I got up early Friday and worked out in the morning, since I knew we’d be home late after graduation.

It paid off: I weighed in Saturday to a loss of 2.6 pounds. I’ve now lost just over 40 pounds total. That leaves me with about 30-40 pounds to go to my goal, depending where I decide my goal weight will be. It still feels like a million miles away, but it sure beats being almost 80 pounds away!

I saw this today on a Facebook fitness page, and I had to steal it. I’ve been struggling with feeling like this whole weight loss journey is taking forever, I will never get there, and I needed to see this today:

It seems really odd to me that no one, and I mean no one, has mentioned my weight loss. Well, Gary and the kids are very encouraging and compliment me, but beyond that, no one has said a word. I think I know why. I have lost weight and gained it all back more than once. I imagine everyone assumes I will gain back anything I lose this time, so it’s not worth talking about. I will prove them wrong, though. I am going to reach my goal, and I am going to stay there this time. I am determined to lose this weight once and for all, and to stay at a healthy weight!