I have to admit, I am floundering around, gaining weight, binging, and have no idea why I am struggling so much. But what I do know: some things are simply not working.
I have gained too much weight to be excited about how much weight I can lose by my birthday in April. I have managed to disappoint myself and fail once again about reaching any kind of goal by my birthday. So I deleted the birthday count-down from my blog, and I renamed my Birthday Goal Weight Countdown page to Goal Weight Countdown. I updated the chart with my current weight and new weekly goals.
Even blogging feels like I am writing the same stuff over and over, for no apparent reason. I’m a broken record. I feel like I’m not getting anything out of it right now.
Obviously I have an attitude problem right now, but I don’t know how to fix it. I ate so much yesterday, it’s a miracle I didn’t burst. I can’t keep accepting behavior and choices like this from myself.
I should be so happy. I don’t get it. I just bought a house, and I love it, and I just got engaged to a man I adore. The worst part of this is not really knowing why I am feeling so down. I should be flying high, working toward looking stunning in my wedding dress, loving my new workout room, and here I am, moping around like Eeyore.
It doesn’t help that the kids brought quite the assortment of germs with them while they were home this past weekend. I love them to death, but they have some atrocious habits they have learned at their other home, like never washing their hands or leaving used tissues laying around, and it’s no wonder I catch everything they bring over, from sniffles to coughs to sore throats. I doused the house with disinfecting wipes, but it wasn’t enough: I have been sick for two days. Great!
One thing definitely not working is hiding away, not writing here, even if I don’t feel like it. I can’t open myself up to any support or tough love if I am sulking around by myself, stuffing my face. So here I am, really hoping I can get my act together soon.
Sweat & Sparkle 
Okay, girlfriend, you are not a failure. You are having a setback. STOP focusing on what you have gained weight and just move forward. It sounds as if you have gotten yourself into a vicious cycle and you need to focus on other things. You can do this but you need to focus on what you can do vs. What you can't do and can't change.
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Okay, girlfriend, you are not a failure. You are having a setback. STOP focusing on what you have gained weight and just move forward. It sounds as if you have gotten yourself into a vicious cycle and you need to focus on other things. You can do this but you need to focus on what you can do vs. What you can't do and can't change.
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You are absolutely right: I am in a nasty cycle of hating myself for gaining weight, then falling back to bad habits because I am so angry with myself.
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You are absolutely right: I am in a nasty cycle of hating myself for gaining weight, then falling back to bad habits because I am so angry with myself.
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It's life, and you are making a lifestyle change, which means there will be setbacks. The nice thing is that you get to choose. It's okay to be Eeyore. I am not sure who says that we have to be happy bubbly all the time, but I don't listen to them. I have emotions, I have ups and downs, part is hormones, part is brain chemistry and part is environment. It's okay to be sad, feel it and then start to move forward. You got this! So you had a few bad days/meals. You have the choice to start again with the next meal, with the next work out, with the next breath! And you aren't the only one! I've gained back some of the weight I've lost, and it shocked and hurt – we've all been there and we are all here together now! 🙂 <3, Kate!
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It's life, and you are making a lifestyle change, which means there will be setbacks. The nice thing is that you get to choose. It's okay to be Eeyore. I am not sure who says that we have to be happy bubbly all the time, but I don't listen to them. I have emotions, I have ups and downs, part is hormones, part is brain chemistry and part is environment. It's okay to be sad, feel it and then start to move forward. You got this! So you had a few bad days/meals. You have the choice to start again with the next meal, with the next work out, with the next breath! And you aren't the only one! I've gained back some of the weight I've lost, and it shocked and hurt – we've all been there and we are all here together now! 🙂 <3, Kate!
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Weight loss isn't easy. Not even Oprah's millions can make her lose and keep it off. So we struggle then we lose and we celebrate and, as humans we go through emotions in life and sometimes we gain and have to start all over again. As long as we keep trying to reach our goal and then keep working on maintaining our goal weight, we are winners. Oh, and next time the kids are scheduled to come over, boost your immune system a week before with 1000mg of vitamin C, acidophilus and (in the winter) 1000ui of vitamin D. Trust me it will help! 🙂
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Weight loss isn't easy. Not even Oprah's millions can make her lose and keep it off. So we struggle then we lose and we celebrate and, as humans we go through emotions in life and sometimes we gain and have to start all over again. As long as we keep trying to reach our goal and then keep working on maintaining our goal weight, we are winners. Oh, and next time the kids are scheduled to come over, boost your immune system a week before with 1000mg of vitamin C, acidophilus and (in the winter) 1000ui of vitamin D. Trust me it will help! 🙂
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