I weighed in a day early last week, since my boyfriend and I were going to be an hour away in Hickville, the redneck town where Psycho dragged the kids after their divorce, most of the day on Friday for the kids’ school orientations. I knew we would be going out to eat for lunch, and I wanted to enjoy it instead of stressing over my weigh-in.
I had a small gain of 0.4 pound, up to 199. Practically back into the 200’s after just getting out of them! I am NOT getting back into the 200’s. It was a small gain, but a gain nonetheless, which means I am doing something wrong that needs to be adjusted. Fast.
The top I wore to the kids’ schools fit looser in the sleeves, so I still felt pretty good. And I had to keep yanking my jeans up. My youngest stepdaughter said maybe it’s because I’m getting smaller, which made my day 🙂 I know they can’t tell yet that I’ve lost weight, but the kids see me working out each day they are with us, so they know I am trying.
I loved seeing the kids on Friday, but it’s disheartening to go to the town they live in now and visit the schools and see how short-changed they are. I am from a small town, so I am not putting down all small towns. But Hickville is the most close-minded, uneducated, disorganized, backward place I’ve ever seen, and I know the kids are not getting the education they deserve there. Class schedules weren’t even ready, and no one seemed to know what was going on.
It meant being in close proximity to Psycho most of the day, watching her waddle through the hallways, forcing people to talk to her so that we would think she is more popular than she is (it didn’t work). I could feel her staring at me, doing her usual size-up, seeing if I am heavier than her, trying to figure out if I have lost any weight. If I haven’t, she doesn’t have to either, seems to be her mindset. But if I have, then she needs to go on some dramatic, competitive pursuit of being thinner than me. Yeah, we’ve been through this a time or two.
She showed her ass at the high school, which was upsetting for the kids, but she doesn’t care about that. She chose to have a temper tantrum when I asked to see my oldest stepson’s class schedule, so I could make sure it was the same as the schedule online, since there was so much confusion about schedules that day. For some reason that infuriated her, and she shoved the schedule at me, huffed, and stomped, tight-lipped, away from me. The kids looked at her like she was crazy (she is), and when my boyfriend came back from the restroom, he said the kids looked upset and asked me what happened.
What kind of person gets so angry and out of sorts about me wanting to double-check a child’s class schedule? It’s a shame she chose to behave like that in front of the kids. It’s a shame she does a lot of things. I’m sure the kids heard all kinds of comments about me the rest of the day.
Today is the kids’ first day of school, so we will call them later to check in and see how it went. I love the back-to-school feeling, a new start, a fresh school year, clean slate, exciting. Perfect day for planning my strategy to make sure I get back to steady weight losses each week and back on plan!
Sweat & Sparkle 